I find it easy to make friendships of the “acquaintance” variety, but I find it incredibly difficult to find and maintain close friendships. The net effect is that I lean on (mostly) one person, outside of my partner. My best friend lives in a different state. They are very busy. They’ve been working so hard … The Power of Friendship
Oh how I love being in control. My partner often accuses me of trying to control everything. I don’t think I do try to control everything, but maybe they’re right. It’s very scary to not be in control. If I’m not in control, bad things can happen. I can lose my stuff (my partner has … Control and self-discipline
I found myself needing to upload a profile picture to sign up for something for this blog, today, and since I don’t want to show my face, I decided to look for some art that might help to show some of the morass of emotions that my past swirls up in me. I went to … Choosing artwork for this blog
Several decades ago, I reached out to my then-estranged father. There’s a story behind that that I will tell some other time. Right now, though, I am re-angered by something that happened not too long after we resumed some sort of relationship. I was not really aware of anger when I was younger. I was … Confronting father about his behavior
Last night, I had another traumatic dream. I have these fairly regularly. Usually, they involve some strange situation that could never happen in real life, but last night, I dreamed that my partner of almost 20 years abandoned me. I dreamed that we were in some other city and were supposed to go to a … Traumatic dreams
I never used to think that what happened to me as a kid was all that bad. After all, I was better off than some… I was better off than kids that got beaten regularly. I was better off than kids who grew up in poverty. I was better off than kids with serious illnesses. … Better Off Than Some…